I guess I feel a little bit of everything. I'm excited to be graduating with my closest friends. I'm anxious about being out in the "real world." I'm sad that I won't be back at Saint Mary's next year. I know I'm going to miss the community and all of my activities. I even feel a little sense of panic when I think about all of the things I want to do here while I have the chance. I still have not gone sledding down the sledding hill, I haven't tried cross country skiing yet, I haven't gone to the apple orchard, and I haven't run the Fall Frolic. I actually have a whole list of things I plan to do this year as part of the SMU "experience."
The newest addition to my list (well, almost newest... I was reminded yesterday that I have not yet gone frolfing) is to figure out what it really means to be Lasallian. I actually think I feel strongest about this particular goal. I do not want to leave Saint Mary's University without having a good, clear idea of what it means to be Lasallian.
This is a Lasallian school, and I've found that there are many aspects of the university that reflect that, but I can't confidently say that I have it figured out just yet. I didn't even know SMU was Lasallian until I got here, and I only knew that it somehow was supposed to make my experience here different.
In freshman year LCT (Lasallian Core Traditions class) I learned about St. John Baptist de La Salle, but that still didn't help me much. Now that I am a senior (not to mention that there has been a recent push to talk about being Lasallian more), I really feel the need to explore it and figure out just what the Lasallian tradition of Saint Mary's has done for me. It has definitely changed the way I see the world and the way I react to things.
This blog will be my chance to sort through it all as I get closer to the big day. I have a feeling I'm going to get a lot more out of my last year here than I did in the first two years combined.
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